My name is Ethan Zhang. It's been two years since I graduated college, and I've wasted those years drifting through a small company. My family's situation is average, and I don't have much ability myself—I've achieved nothing.
I had a girlfriend, Lily Wu. We’d been together for six years and planned to get married this year—until today. By chance, while browsing a certain kind of website, I downloaded a video. It’d been months since I’d had any of that.
A passionate scene in a bank office starring a pretty young woman.
To my shock, the female lead was Lily Wu. The man—Nathan Li, my childhood friend. I was furious and confronted Lily Wu. Nathan Li rushed over too.
I copied the video onto my phone and confronted them both in person. Lily Wu and Nathan Li admitted everything.
Not a single word of apology. Instead, they cursed me, saying I was a useless man—couldn’t afford a car, couldn’t buy a house, and was still wasting my days at a small company.
All day, I felt unbearable pain. I even thought about killing them—and then finding a place to end myself. Six years of love meant more to me than anything.
The bottle of Erguotou in my hand was almost empty. I pulled out another. I admit it—I’m a coward. And I really am a useless man.
I staggered drunkenly, not even knowing where I was going, drinking as I walked.
"Damn it... bitch... bitch... why, why..."